Saturday, March 24, 2012

How We Come to Terms with 'Forgiving' and 'Forgetting'

~By Indigenous Shamanic Winds
 Date Composed:  Wednesday, 18 November 2009

When I came to knowing witchcraft, later in my studies I started doing self-journeying, going to my Place of Power, and it wasn't exactly the intentions I had in mind when visiting there. I posted a comment I'd written below in one of my other groups I had started on the web last year -- but whether we are new or an old hand, we often wonder about how we feel about 'forgiving' and 'forgetting' -- and I had all my life learned to forgive, but not forget, and my journey I had taken finally peaked and I learned what I had once faced long ago that didn't quite have an answer to why I found it so hard to 'forget'.

Here's my short story:
Talking about forgiving and forgeting, there's one thing I can never do is "forget"--only due for my case is that it reminds me of the situation, what I can do to change my thoughts about it, live and learn from it, try not to get myself in the same situations from it, and move on. But I can "forgive"-- and I have always done it for all of my life. What is the use of burdening yourself more over a situation and being angry all the time?

I did a lot of journeying to my Place of Power back when I first began practicing, and something came up on my journey where I saw a Shadow of my past--but it was not in shadow form, that's how I perceived it to being, the person was actually there looking like he had when he caused much pain in my life. He was actually afraid of me after I told him face-to-face that I could forgive him and nothing he ever could think or do to me again could ever hurt me, and he disappeared when a vision of a Goddess gave him the "evil" eye. It was amazing how I felt after that journey--but I cannot forget what happened, because if what he did to me comes up with a child I hear and know about in the future, I will be able to take my knowledge from that and be able to hopefully help the child in need.

The man was my birth mother's ex-husband of many years ago when I was seven, and let's just say that he was abusive towards women.

 ~)O( Indigenous Shamanic Winds xo

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