- Judy Blume, Tiger Eyes
Looking at the conception of FEAR for the past years of my life, I've noticed that although it has stirred up and swirled into our lives since we were born in a 'Widdershins' Spiral pattern from the outside circle going inwards, those fears have built up over the years and nearly hit the Core Center of it some years back when it came to surface from the Unconscious.
Like being at the 'Core' of the Earth, it was like a fire-hot orange ball, imbued with anger and depression and sadness and self-defeat, the Fire-In-the-Soul awaiting to explode. I had come to a point of my life where I wasn't going to give up.
But I had also been aware certainly of this powerful energy that had built up inside the womb. I traveled a nasty Journey into the Underworld for about a year, when the Universe and I came in Balance finally -- and slowly, my Core Being began releasing all this tension and such that I had.
It took turn and the Spiral pattern began to once again traveling 'Deosil', spiraling outwards, waving good-bye to my anger, freeing from my depression, putting on a happy-face, giving me the courage and strength in finally surfacing my pains.
I let them go. I released with LOVE instead of exploding. And the Sun shone brightly in the Sky again for me!
I have continued, since then, in making Connections and Balancing my Self out with the Universe. I have understood that Fear is there in helping to aide us and challenging us with how we choose to live our lives. And like Judy Blume quoted above, how we handle our Selves is where our lives determine us in heading.
)O( Indigenous Shamanic Winds xo